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20.4.11

Before I Was A Mom

Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom
I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom
Before I was a Mom
I never thought so much pleasure can be derived from merely watching your child sleep and dream, and that so much joy can be had just by merely holding those chubby little hands.
Before I was a Mom
I had no idea that the most beautiful scent in the world is that of a newborn baby.
Before I was a Mom
I never knew I could love with a love so deep, so hard, so intense.
And that I could love each child so differently yet just as strongly.
Before I was a Mom
I never knew I could be so strong and yet be so vulnerable.
Before I was a Mom
I never realised how dangerous this world can be.
Before I was a Mom
I thought heartbreak only comes from unrequited love.
I never realised it’s more heart-breaking when you have to be hard on your children because you want them to do the right thing.
I love being a mom and, even though it’s not easy being a mother, I just can’t imagine life without my children.


my heart is full


norhaflan rifdi
28 months

norhaifa rafissa
5 months

dush!
hey!kalau suka kenapa tak klik LIKE je?

2 comments:

  1. hehe.sila geram ye :)
    jangan geram marah sudah.

    ReplyDelete

ini kotak komen. bukan kotak romen.

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